Fourteen-year-old me would be hyperventilating and jumping for joy if she were here today. Twenty-nine-year old me is currently hyperventilating, but also absolutely terrified at the same time.
Why? You ask.
Because Of Ash & Shadow, first in my Triskelion Series, releases on September 15, 2020. 81 days from now. WHAT?!! Fourteen-year-old me was certain I’d be published long before now, but I know until now I wasn’t ready. Yet, it still feels absolutely surreal to be publishing my debut novel in less than ninety days.
What’s truly scary is how much I have to complete between today and September 15th. Releasing this post finalizes the fact that I MUST be done with all the work by then. Do I know I can do it? Yes! Does it make it any less anxiety-inducing? Nope!
That’s okay though, all good things are a bit scary.
I have severe social anxiety just fyi, if I haven’t mentioned that before (I talk about it, I’m not ashamed of it, and I hope my honesty helps fuel the removal of stigma around mental health). But, I got help for my anxiety and I currently take medication to manage it and I am the happiest I have ever been.
I told you this because going from living with anxiety to living without anxiety thanks to medication taught me a very important lesson. That lesson was relearning what truly terrifies me to the point that I shouldn’t do it, and what scares me, but is worth doing because the outcome could be amazing.
Now, every time something scares me I ask myself – Am I truly afraid? Or am I simply afraid of the unknown/potential outcome?
This helped me get my first tattoo. Helped me make friends. Helped me figure out I deserved a good man in my life! Helped me decide to finally step into the publishing world.
I am a serial editor.
I will edit a book until I’m dead if it means not taking that leap into uncertainty. It wasn’t until my amazing teacher, from the Margie Lawson Academy, read my first three chapters and wrote me back that I realized I’d been stuck in a loop. She said either I published this book myself or I found a publisher to take it on. She said STOP! And then, I broke the loop.
Stuck editing. Stuck doubting myself. Stuck on the edge of a cliff of which I had to take that leap of faith.
I am proud of myself for leaping. Am I terrified about falling for another 81 days? Sure am, but I’m not going to back out now.
So watch the horizon, scan the bookshelves, write the date in your calendar…
Of Ash & Shadow, Book One of the Triskelion Series will officially release on September 15th 2020.
If you’d like to pre-order the ebook version, hop on over to:
Amazon – https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08BG8SVY2
Barnes & Noble – https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/of-ash-shadow-…/1137208245…
Of Ash & Shadow will also be available in Paperback on Amazon upon release. Select Hardbacks will be available through Barnes & Noble after release as well.
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